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Ngayon ay: Agosto uno, alas dose y medya ng umaga

Last Song Syndrome:
"So why does your pride make you run and hide, are you that afraid of me?"
- Wait For You by Eliott Yamin

Last Program Seen: Natutulog ba ang Diyos????!! (napilitan lang ako kc ruled by women ang household namin ngaun!)

Ginintuang aral: 
"Delaying gratification is a process of scheduling the pain and pleasure of life in such a way as to enhance the pleasure by meeting and experiencing the pain first and getting it over with. It is the only decent way to live"   
- M. Scott Peck, M.D. The Road Less Travelled

Liwaliw kanina: sa kama, sa malambot at komportableng kama.

Misteryosong katanungan: Bakla ba talaga si Tinky Winky ng teletubbies??

Text Message of the day (nung father’s day pa):
"Sperm are fast and as cute as tadpoles. They have chubby teardrop
heads and stylish, tapering tails, and they glide, slither, bumble and
do figure-eights. So while a father may not be entitled to take the
same pride in his sperm as he does in his kids, it’s fair to celebrate
the single-minded cellular commas that helped give those children their
start."

Recent Status: "Para kang karinderyang bukas sa lahat ng gustong kumain!!"

General Status:
"Sige! Sige na! Karinderya na ako. Kumain sila hanggat gusto nila! Bibigyan ko pa sila ng extra rice! Free soup pa!"

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The first day of August gave me something I should have had a long time ago…..guts, steel-coated, bulletproof guts.

I am an overthinker. I consider every detail of the choice I make. That trait made me indecisive and it has tortured me for a very long time until it came to a point that my overthinking almost transmutated to paranoia. That feeling was horrible, its just like what other people say; that everyone seems to be looking at you, judging you in every action that you do. And the feeling brought about by the thought that every decision could jumpstart a chain reaction of events leading to failure was like having your heart pulled off out of your a**.

But now, ITS ALL GOING TO CHANGE. Carpe diem, seize the day..now I understand it. I know this is not going to be easy, but I am ready to face them all. God will help me. i dont know what is going to happen but I am sure that this is the only way that it has to be.

Sayonara July, and all the other months and years before this August of 2007 for today I am free from your slavery.

Ngayon ay: Hunyo bente kwatro, sabado, alas tres y medya ng madaling  araw

Last Song Syndrome:

"For the very first time I blessed my eyes on you girl, my heart said follow through"

Last Program Seen: Southpark

Ginintuang aral:  kumpletuhin ang isang linggong pag-inom ng antibiotic, kung hindi. babalik ang sore throat

Liwaliw kanina: Hema, Phlebo, 9th floor, ER, Clin Mic, Robinson, Bahay

Recent Status:
" I am not your trophy wife!!"

General Status: "…your a trophy wife?? WHAT contest in HELL did I win?!!"

"Hindi po ako Robot" … ito ang mga salitang gusto ko sanang sabihin kay Maam kanina habang ako ay nagpapabalik parito sa maliit na espasyo ng Hema at sa magulong mundo ng Utility.

"Hindi po ako Robot"… ang sinabi ko ng makita ko ang 12 foot na print-out na PAPEL ng printer kanina na puno ng request for blood extraction na ginusto ko sanang gawing pangbaga ng uling bukas sa barbecue

"Hindi po ako Robot"… ang binubulong ko ng makita ko ang schedule ko na PANAY Overtime sa halos sunod sunod na araw na sana po ay ni-note nyo na lang sa sched ko na ganito: "Tibunsay, JK = June 20-25 to be tortured for a week with stress and starvation leading to Ketosis; June 25-30 to be thrown to the lions for dinner

"Hindi po ako Robot"…TAO po ako, reminder lang. Kelangan kong kumain at magpahinga after kumain para hindi magkaappendicitis. kumagat paminsan minsan ng Cloud 9 upang maloko ko ang utak ko na hindi pa ako hypoglycemic (kahit na ang tingin ko na sa Monocyte sa microscope ay isang masarap na Ube Hopia) at pumunta ng banyo upang magbladder break at makita ang sarili ko sa salamin at sabihing "Ay shet, di na ko mukhang tao!"

Kaya po sinasabi ko sa inyo ngaun na Hindi po ako Robot na pwedeng pakainin ng 220 volts ng kuryente 24/7, I need some rest too, some relief out of this stress-infested world of the hospital. Dahil kung hindi po, bibigay na ako (hindi po ung pundasyon ko kung hindi ung katawan ko). Give me a BREAK! God, please give me a break, some peace of mind of some sort. And then somehow, please remind me why I’m REALLY doing this job again, thank you.

It was a Monday morning and a familiar voice from the AM radio woke me up. It was Armida Siguion Reyna with her undeniably strong sense of delivering words. What I heard was probably one of the best Pinoy poems I have ever heard. No other poem ever encourages me and gives me tips to live life.

From the Album "Pop Lola"
As interpreted by Armida Siguion Reyna

TAGUBILIN AT HABILIN

Text by Jose F. Lacaba

Mabuhay ka, kaibigan!

Iyan ang una’t huli kong

Tagubilin at habilin: Mabuhay ka!

Sa edad kong ito, marami akong maibibigay na payo.

Mayaman ako sa payo.

Maghugas ka ng kamay bago kumain.

Maghugas ka ng kamay pagkatapos kumain.

Pero huwag kang maghuhugas ng kamay para lang makaiwas sa sisi.

Huwag kang maghuhugas ng kamay kung may inaapi

Na kaya mong tulungan.

Paupuin sa bus ang matatanda at ang mga may kalong na sanggol.

Magpasalamat sa nagmamagandang-loob.

Matuto sa karanasan ng matatanda

Pero huwag magpatali sa kaisipang makaluma.

Huwag piliting matulog kung ayaw kang dalawin ng antok.

Huwag pag-aksayahan ng panahon ang walang utang na loob.

Huwag makipagtalo sa bobo at baka ka mapagkamalang bobo.

Huwag bubulong-bulong sa mga panahong kailangang sumigaw.

Huwag kang manalig sa bulung-bulungan.

Huwag kang papatay-patay sa ilalim ng pabitin.

Huwag kang tutulog-tulog sa pansitan.

Umawit ka kung nag-iisa sa banyo.

Umawit ka sa piling ng barkada.

Umawit ka kung nalulungkot.

Umawit ka kung masaya.

Ingat lang.

Huwag kang aawit ng "My Way" sa videoke bar at baka ka mabaril.
Huwag kang magsindi ng sigarilyo sa gasolinahan.

Dahan-dahan sa matatarik na landas.

Dahan-dahan sa malulubak na daan.

Higit sa lahat, inuulit ko: Mabuhay ka!

Maraming bagay sa mundo na nakakadismaya.

Mabuhay ka.

Maraming problema ang mundo na wala na yatang lunas.

Mabuhay ka.

Sa hirap ng panahon, sa harap ng kabiguan,

Kung minsan ay gusto mo nang mamatay.

Gusto mong maglaslas ng pulso kung sawi sa pag-ibig.

Gusto mong uminom ng lason kung wala nang makain.

Gusto mong magbigti kung napakabigat ng mga pasanin.

Gusto mong pasabugin ang bungo mo kung maraming gumugulo sa utak.

Huwag kang patatalo. Huwag kang susuko.

Narinig mo ang sinasabi ng awitin:

"Gising at magbangon sa pagkagupiling,

Sa pagkakatulog na lubhang mahimbing."

Gumising ka kung hinaharana ka ng pag-ibig.

Bumangon ka kung nananawagan ang kapuspalad.

Ang sabi ng iba: "Ang matapang ay walang-takot lumaban."

Ang sabi ko naman: Ang tunay na matapang ay lumalaban

Kahit natatakot.

Lumaban ka kung inginungodngod ang nguso mo sa putik.

Bumalikwas ka kung tinatapak-tapakan ka.

Buong-tapang mong ipaglaban ang iyong mga prinsipyo

Kahit hindi ka sigurado na agad-agad kang mananalo.

Mabuhay ka, kaibigan.
Mabuhay ka.

After months of silence here in my blogsite because of extreme toxicity at work and further adjustments in my new apartment, I am back and I am sooooo eager to express myself again in the only way that I can do it best…blogging. I realized that i had so much to do and because of that, I unknowingly buried my desire to write. That is why Im back again to patch up the holes, catch up with time and reclaim my lost knowledge.

Its funny how too much work made me more stupid than ever. And when I said stupid, I meant that I forgot how to expand my thoughts and be curious on the simple things that are quietly happening. Being confounded in the toxic world of the hospital has made my mind stagnant and that is not good. Sure I have my weekly dose of booze and good times but these things just cover up for the emptiness I have inside.

And so Im back and Im here to mark again my presence in the cyberworld of Blog. Comments will be very much apppreciated from all you guys out there and it will definitely boost up my energy for writing, so please do guys.

So, until my next entry, this business is ON.

So i was surfing the net, specifically, Yahoo.com when I happen to stumble in their Best of Yahoo Answers 2006 and this one particular question really made me think. Let me share it with you:

Did you ever have that feeling of wanting to go to sleep but
sleep wants to play a little Catch me If you Can game (with matching “C’mon and
get me, get me, get me by MYMP as background music)?
Of course you have! Im
sorry for this crap but my mind is just so tangled right now. I know, wala na nga kong ginagawa ditto sa
bahay ganito pa ang utak ko?! Anong inaarte mo?! Peste. Enough of this English
wannabee crap! Magtatagalog na ko. Gusto ko lang kasing magpraktis mag-english
kasi naisip ko na pumasok sa call center, eh diba dapat mahusay mag-english
dun? Oo naman syempre magaling na talaga ako mag-english (ehem) at mabilis rin
ako pumick-up ng English conversation. Hindi ko lang talaga maintidihan kung
bakit kinakabahan ako pag totohanan nang English na usapan involving really
real situations.

Pero buti na lang marami tayong opportunities para
magpraktis ng ating mapangdayuhang dila. Sa pelikula lang nga eh ang sarap nang manood ng mga
American movies lalo na ung mga intelehente ang topics…grabe ang sarap manood kapag gets
mo ang sinasabi nila. Partida pa ko kung naiinitidihan mo pa ung morals ng
pelikula eh di big time ka kung kunwari ung may kasama kang chick at medyo
hindi nya gets….explain mo sa kanya! “Grabe Karl, ur so sensible talaga its like you can make
intindi the lines of Clint Eastwood in Million Dollar Baby unlike me kasi naman
his voice is like bakal na kinakayod..davah?!….Score!

Eh kapag naman na-involve ka sa isang malalim at madamdaming
usapan na ‘English only pls’ ang ambience….payabangan na yan! Meron dyan
hihirit ng ‘Its not what the person said, it’s what the person did!’ o kaya
naman ‘You can’t make someone love you just because you love him /her’ Good
heavens! Alam kaya ng mga taong ito ang sinasabi nila?

Nandyan pa ang mga nagkalat na mga popular book novels
ngaun. Nariyan ang Harry Potter, The Da Vinci Code, Angels and Demons, The Alchemist,
Veronika Decides to Die at kung anu ano pa. Ang pagbabasa ng mga ganitong libro
ay tunay talagang nagpapahasa sa English vocabulary nating mga pinoy.

Pero ang totoong tanong: BAKIT MAHIRAP MAG-ENGLISH SA MGA
TOTOONG SITWASYON NA NANGANGAILAN NITO?

Marahil ung iba dyan nagyayabang kesyo sabi nila ‘Eh English
lang, kinakabahan ka pa, tanga!’ Mga gunggong! Experience is a good teacher,
but you can never brag about it, specially to people who haven’t been taught by
Professor Experience. Oo nga sa mga resume eh kelangan mo talaga ipagyabang
yang mga experiences mo…syempre kasi trabaho yan eh, KAILANGAN MO YAN. Eh yang
bang pagyayabang mo sa mga taong hindi pa masyado nahasa…..KAILANGAN MO?

 
Ano nga ba kasi ang problema? Let me state the possible reasons

1. First time sa ganung sitwasyon
2. Nahihiya
3. Natatakot mapahiya
4. Baka mali ang gamit ng word
5. Kulang sa self-confidence

Ung reason # 1 madaling solusyunan. Ung reason # 2…..pwede
ba?! Bat ka naman mahihiyang mag-apply ng trabaho????? Ung reason # 3….para di
mapahiya magdahandahan, kapag napahiya….magpatawa. Ung reason # 4, sadya talaga
na mali gumamit ng words ang mga Amerikano, mas correct ang grammar ng mga pinoy….weird
nga lang pakinggan pag ginamit sa American conversation. At ang reason
#5……palakasan lang ng loob…konting yabang ang kelangan.

Oh well, life is tough and we just have to get through this
simple problems, right? The important thing is that whatever comes out of our
mouth doesn’t cause pain to the people around us. That is the essence of communication,
to build bridges among people. Kaya kung naghahanap ka lang ng away at wala
kang masabing matino…JUST SHUT THE F*&K UP!!!

Announcing the arrival of the newest gadget all boys out there should have! NO…ITs NOT a new model of a cellfone or mp3 or some kickass hi-tech watchmacallit electrical toy, its not even TiVo! Its none other than this! Yes, youve seen it right, its a clicker! But this is not an ordinary clicker for us boys, its called a Chick Clicker. So, how does it works? You use it to count the number of smiles and those Bambi-like-eyelash-snapping looks that women youve passed by in the street, the bus, the jeep, anywhere! And in the end of the day you can show this of to your guy friends or enjoy it all by yourself and admire your UBER-MALENESS and boost that steaming confidence you have!

How do you know when you are already grown up? This movie answers that in a very different light. Postmen in the Mountains (Nashan Naren Nagou) is about the journey of a father and son along the moutainous province of Hunan, China. For many years, the father served as the postman in their province carrying a really, really huge back pack containing good news, bad news, mail and money to the mountain people. Oh, of course, I said a mountain ayt? That means he has to travel a hefty 150 kilometers, by foot, against rocks, steep terrains, streams and rivers which eventually takes three days. Unfortunately he has to retire because his arthritis was starting to become worse. And who else should he entust this job? His 21 year old son. As the son travels along with his father, who guides him and teaches him the do’s and dont’s of the job, the son realizes the true value of his father’s work.

The story is really so simple but yet as we get indulged to the luscious mountain background, the father-son relationship, and the postman’s job description, we are suddenly surprised how the story relates to the restrained emotions of many families whose father is working far from home, often away for many months or years.

I, myself was definitely moved by this movie because I can relate to the emotions of the son as my own father also works abroad and only get to go home once a year. The son in the movie did not really have much time to bond and build a relationship with his father which causes him to misunderstand his father. The journey is actually the longest time that the father-son spent with each other and through this, the two exchanges their own sentiments. Although, the scenes were very simple, there are very deep emotions that the movie has excellently delivered. A quietly beautiful tale in which very little is shown and everything is imagined.

So, how do you know when you are already grown-up? That is when you can carry your father on your back across a stream, the very person whom just years ago you saw as someone so huge and unimaginably possible to carry, the very person who used to carry you on his back when you were still little and fragile. By then, if you can do that, you ARE already grown up and ready to take on the challenges in life….even your father’s job.

I REALLY RECOMMEND THAT YOU WATCH THIS GUYS, SA ABC 5 THEY SHOWCASE BEAUTIFUL CHINESE FILMS EVERY SATURDAY AFTER PHILIPPINE IDOL! PREPARE NYO NA LANG MATA NYO FOR THE SUBTITLES HEHEHEHE!

Note: This post was written using Double Mind Regression Technique.

And the clock just kept on ticking and ticking….a coutndown towards Judgement Day. Nararamdaman mo na ba? Ako…oo…ngayon pa lang. Ngayon pa lang! Sa dalawang buwan ko ng pagrereview, ngayon pa lang talaga nagsink-in sa utak ko ang mga petsang September 2 at 3…Shit….alanganin pa ko sa CC….Shit……hindi ko pa nakakabonding si Harmening…Shit…hindi pa kami nagkikita uli ni Ciulla….Shit….at never ko pa na-meet in person si Henry….SHIT. Sorry for the shit….i’ll clean ‘em up later…I SHOULD really clean them up! Paano kung hindi Karl? Paano kung kulang na sa ORAS? Tumahimik ka! May schedule ako! Kaya ko maaral lahat! Haha may schedule ka nga…nasusunod mo ba naman? Eh nanonood ka nga ng mga shows ng Primetime, SInama mo pa sa schedule mo talaga! Kelangan ko un, kelangan ko rin mag-relax in between! IN between? ang sabihin mo nag-aaral ka lang ang between ng shows! Grrr. Face it Karl…You are so unprepared, do you expect na masama ka sa upper 40% ng pasado matapos ng mga pinaggagagawa mo?! nagdede-daydream ka pa every 15 minutes ng mga childish imaginative things! Kesyo may superpowers ka? Kesyo kaya mo kontrolin ang oras at gumiba ng pader? Haha. NILOLOKO mo lang ang sarili mo. Tulad ng panloloko mo sa sarili mo na ang mga KAIBIGANG nangako sa iyo na lagi mo maaasahan ay laging nandiyan. Mali ka. Tulad ng paniniwala mo na makakapagmed ka sa UST. Mali ka na naman. Tulad ng pag-aakala mo na lagi kang paliliguan ng swerte sa pagsagot ng tanong. Mali ka pa rin. Tulad ng sobra mong paniniwala sa sarili mo, na nagrurunung-runungan ka. Maling mali ka. Ano na ba ang mga nagawa mong TAMA? Ano nang MAIPAGMAMALAKI mo? Tama ka, isa na nga lang akong kaluluwang naghihintay para hubugin ng tadhana. Isang walang kwentang basura na imposible nang marecycle. Pero may isang bagay kang nakalimutan….May PANGARAP ako…ang nag-iisang bagay na nagtutulak sa akin para magpatuloy patungo sa Judgement day….Ang erythropoietin na nag-iistimulate sa aking Bone marrow para hindi ako magkaanemia…ang fixative na nagpeprevent sa akin na mag-autolysis. Tama ka, puro mali na lang buhay ko at ITO na lang natatanging paraan upang mapatunayan ko sa sarili ko at sa lahat na may kapasidad pa akong gumawa ng TAMA. Ilang araw na nga lang ba? 31 Days…oo kaunting oras na lang pero alam ko na hindi ako nag-iisa, kahit pa wala na ang mga kaibigang maasahan ko daw at kahit hindi ko naiintindihan ng magulang ko minsan. Kasama ko ang Diyos ang hanggat binibuhay niya ako sa bawat umagang gumigising ako, alam ko na may silbi pa rin ako sa mundo. At ang pangarap ko? BONUS na lang yan sa buhay ko at dahil bonus yan…nakahanda na yan kapag ibinigay sa atin…buong-buo….no strings attached.

Ang dapat ko lang gawin eh mabuhay at gawing kapakipakinabang ang bawat araw ng buhay ko. Mag-aaral ako. Mag-dadasal. Idilat ang mata sa patungo sa TAMANG sagot. Patuloy akong aasa para sa September BONUS galing kay BOSS. Grabe, oo nga….ngaun ko lang narealize….ang dami ko palang MAIPAGMAMALAKI.

(Special thanks to the art film na Last Life in the Universe for the spark of insipiration to write)

Gusto mo bang makapanood ng mga pinakamagagandang art films ever made kaso nga lang wala kang perang pambili ng DVD. Well ito na ang sagot sa problema. RPN 9  Prime Shift presents: Art Films every Monday night!!! Ipapalabas nila ang mga best and finest art films tulad ng TALK TO HER, DANCER IN THE DARK, AMELIE and marami pang iba. Every Monday Nigth yan ah starting this July. This is your chance to know na hindi pala Spiderman or X-Men or ung mga paulit ulit na plot na lang ng ibang mga Hollywood films ang mga best films ever made.

Definition:

Art Film - a film away from the Hollywood sidelines that focuses more on the aesthestic aspect rather than earning big in the box office.